attraction

exactly how is attraction deifined? if you think they're "cute" is that enough? or do you have to want them with heart and soul? this is probably the most ridiculous post i'll ever make. it's beyond random right now. i should be studying for that whore of a com test i have on monday. anyways, it was jsut a random thought. i'm not really sure where it came from.

so i have decided that when you get back to your room by 1215 on a friday night. go to bed at 3am. and plan to spend the entire consequent saturday studying... you have a very sad life. maybe not sad, but definitely not an exciting one. and just in case you didn't catch that one... i was talking about myself. last night i wanted to go out and sit in the car by the shore in the rain. but all of my freinds were either gone or too boring to enjoy a moment of spontaneity.

i also finally saw vanilla sky in its entirety for the first time last night. o gracious. can i jsut say that when i am gone... cremate me. i don't want a "lucid dream" or any "lucid sleep" or whatever. no thank you. that's a nightmare. no cryogenically freezing either. i've gone. let me go. what is the point in trying to lengthen life? life just isn't as precious when it can be maintained to last forever and to give you whatever pleases you. it's funny because that line "the sweet isn't as sweet without the sour," is so ture. i had always believed that and then i saw vanilla sky. and it's true. without the downs you can never truly appreciate the greatness and glory of the ups. you can sit at the top of mt. everest your whole life, but if you never are in the valley, the majesty will be lost upon you.

ok. post over. i really wnt an A on thsi next com test so i must go study.

p.s. that movie the net, never get on boats with strangers. hello sandra bullock... duh?